The Steady Incline

Travel

2009-06-20T18:05:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning, dark and early, and climbed into my mom's Honda Pilot. She drove me to the airport and I was off on another EFY adventure. Only the whole flight ride from the airport thing got screwed up. The result is when I arrived at Regan National Airport in Washington DC I had no ride. It was a pretty terrible feeling, being someplace you don't know without a single soul to help you. I was resourceful, however, I found my way to the metro and made my way to Kings street, where there was, according to the map, an Amtrak station. I sucesfully made it to King Street but when I looked to see on the map to find the station... well... lets just say the maps are stupid... or perhaps I am stupid, but I wandered for a while looking for it. I finally found it, It was behind the metro station (DER!)(also, not a refreance to a mediocre and often lame band). I got a ticket to Culpeper where apparently I could get a ride from. After purchaseing the ticket I felt awful. There I was stranded and alone, and I felt Aw-Fully. I suddenly wish I wasn't doing EFY this year that I was just at home helping Danie get ready for the wedding and finding a permanant job.

1.5 hours + a train ride later, I am in Culpeper and have time to kill before my ride arrives. I stroll down the street and eat dinner in a local cafe' then head to a bench outside of a closed coffee shop with free wi-fi. There I sit, I am still alone and still feel, for the most part, like I did at the train station in DC.

Come and see the show!

2009-03-25T15:33:00.001-07:00

Top 5's of 2008! TV

2008-12-29T23:45:00.000-08:00

So lots of people are doing top 10's. I don't want to think that much so here are my top 5's of 2008. Keep in mind it is what I have seen and I don't see a lot of movies.

TV- ah the idiot box. A median I had all but shunned a mere two years ago. Now thanks to Hulu and other forms of internet broadcast I am addicted to several shows. So lets look at the ones that captured my heart.

1. Pushing Daisies (ABC) - I love this show. I find the humor witty, the drama entertaining, the characters interesting and engrossing and the story downright fun. I also love the majestic cinematography and feel of the show. Lee Pace does an awesome job as Ned the dead raising pie maker and Kristin Chenoweth is just amazing and Hilarious not to mention that on a couple of occasions we get to hear her sing! Alas, this story doses not have a happy ending. It seems that in its second season Pushing Daisies will meet its end due to the fools at ABC and anyone who didn't watch the show (I blame you!)

2. Chuck (NBC) - Say what you will but this show is awesome! It is funny, exciting and frustrating. Chuck should freaking just hook up with Sarah FOR REAL! Ok, with that rant out of the way I can just say that that frustration is part of what makes this show awesome! It has been fun to see in the second season Chuck grow in his role with the CIA. Plus having Adam Baldwin in the cast doesn't hurt (viva Firefly!). Also, the introduction of Tony Hale (of Arrested Development (RIP) fame) has added to the fun of this show. This show has had steadily improving ratings which impressive because it competes with the monstrosity Dancing With the Stars which end soon. Unfortunately the not as entertaining beast known as House will be moving to the same time slot in the new year. I swear, Dr. House, if you kill Chuck I will break your crippled legs!

3. The Office (NBC) - The new season has revived my faith in the show

4. Fringe (FOX) - I LIKE it ok!? I don't really have a good reason why

5. Bones (FOX) - Ok this season is not as good as past seasons. But it is still better than most shows.

Now Listening to The Sunlandic Twins By Of Montreal(vinyl)

"You killed christmas! You son of a B-!"

2008-12-16T21:45:00.000-08:00

So this is how it was when I left. The snow was falling, I was buying christmas gift for my friends before I left(many copies of Serenity if I remember correctly- Heck yeah!). I was anticipating a "luggage christmas" as many missionaries receive before leaving. It was all so surreal. I knew I would be gone for a long time. It was a long time. Now I am home and it's that time of year again but it feels like the first time for me. I love it. I love being home. I love the snow. I love seeing "A Christmas Carol" twice. I love the fact that I get all emotional when Christ is mentioned in a carol or story. It makes me think it makes me want to be better. So I will! Look out world, better Greg is coming.

The semester is over and I did well in all but one, the vile cursed world of Nutrition! Alas, I am moving on to bigger and better things! I have two Poli Sci classes next semester and I am excited about that. I am also taking a class about mental disabilities that I am way excited for because well my sister has downs syndrome and I love her guts! The big kicker however is I am taking private pilot ground school and private pilot certification! Thats right I am going to learn to fly (cue the Foo Fighters!). That is going to be just downright amazing!

My good friend John Terry goes on his mission in the morning. I am going to miss him. We had some awesome times. Not to mention how awesome it has been to see him grow over the past year. He will be greatly missed. Especially because my list of close friends at Utah State is shot. Perhaps this will force me to expand it. With his leaving a big responsibility falls on me. I am now the president of the Improv Club. That is really exciting. I hope I can handle the responsibility. There is so much I want to do. Logan is like an improv opportunity waiting to happen. They have never really had an improv troupe. I think we can do big things with "The Antics" doing short form and a few little long form teams playing with them. With Matt moving up it should be a big help and a lot of fun.

For now, however, I simply enjoy the magic of Christmas. The snowy, scarfy, lighty, sweatery, vinyly wonderful time of year!

Now Listening to: Belle & Sebastian - "Dear Catastrophe Waitress" (LP o' course silly)

(You never...) Vinyls, More, More!

2008-12-15T22:19:00.000-08:00

Blah Blah! You never blog. We sorry. I should, heaven knows I do a lot of things less constructive.

So Matt and I bought a turntable for our new place in Logan and it basically rawks. First of all it just feels cooler to listen to something on vinyl rather that CD's or digital format. Also I really like the sound, I can really tell the difference. It's less harsh. We hit up Graywhale to try and find some sweet LP's. We walked out with some sweet stuff. We got a copy of Pink Floyd's "The Wall"! I feel as if that was a find. Well, it wasn't really a find seeing as the lady told us it was there when she saw us sifting through the vinyls. Matt got a Rod Stewart album, we should have listened to it before hand because it has pretty bad quality. I found a used Hot Hot Heat "Elevator" LP. We got the Bright Eyes "Four Winds" EP. I found an album by Deerhunter called "Microcastle" that I bought on a whim because I had heard good things about them (more on that later). I addition I got a Constantine/Feist 45" and Jason Mraz 45".

As if that was not enough when we get home I pull out my dad's old records and we found some pure gold! There was Pink Floyd, The Beatles, Styx, Bob Dylan, The Who, The Bee Gees and the Awesomness goes on and on!

Spin the Black Circle! (or white in the case of the picture above... however I do not judge between black and white vinyls, but I sorta do... cus the white one looks so cool! Note: This should be in no way taken in a racist way.)

I am now listening to: "Microcastle" - DeerHunter (LP)

Sooo.... Sweet!

2008-11-09T23:48:00.000-08:00

Be excited it is going to make the world a better place!

Then we fall...

2008-11-08T12:09:00.000-08:00

Oh my dear what shall we do now?/ The leaves have fallen just to spite us./ Each leaf, with beauty in its death, falls gracefully to the ground./ The trees show their true colors then they die./ No one to place a star on their heads./ Wasted for the winter/ Could you not last till the day of our Lord?/ When the faithful receive glory at their feet?/ Prideful as the pine we shall not dive to nakedness and insecurities/ They do not sacrifice their beauty for a few weeks of awe./ Hold on through winter/ Let us make it to the living room.

An artist I love: Hello Saferide

2008-11-06T23:38:00.000-08:00

So, I have been getting into a music kick again. I just like music, a lot. Therefore I want to profile an artist that has stuck out in particular as I have been expanding my musical horizons, Hello Saferide.
As I have been striving to become more diverse in my musical taste I stumbled across a genre that tickled my fancy quite a bit. I discovered the beautiful style of indie, indie pop and twee. I find these artists to be very enchanting and alluring in their music. As ska music begs me to be happy and dance indie pop spikes my curiosity and imagination begging me to listen to it some more. Searching the vast expanse of wonderful music in this area a swedish artist stuck out to me, Hello Saferide.

I first heard her music on Last.fm music recommendation tool(very handy). I was intrigued by her voice and by how fun and imaginative her lyrics were as they were mixed with the acoustic strums of her guitar. I visited her website and discovered some free MP3s I downloaded them and listened to them over and over again.

For months I enjoyed the few Mp3s I had. Eventually, however, my addiction wanted to expand. I purchased her 2 full length CDs Introducing... Hello Saferide and More Modern Short Stories From Hello Saferide I was quite pleased I did! So check out Annika Norlin's Hello Saferide. There is a song on the playlist to the left so you can hear. There are some Vids on YouTube. There are also the free MP3's from the artists website. Or better yet buy her Cd's at amazon.com.

People are like songs, it's true
Some seem dull at first but then they grow on you
Me, I'm like Can't Get You Out of My Head
Annoying at times but I make you wanna dance

-Hello Saferide, I Wonder Who Is Like This One

Still not over it!

2008-11-05T10:04:00.000-08:00

I refuse to let my county become an Obama-nation!

I am back!

2008-11-05T00:20:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone! I am back and hopefully for good this time. The past few months have been a roller coaster of insanity. Happiness and sadness, success and failure, ecstasy and depression... seriously folks its been insane. To top it off our country made a terrible decision yesterday in electing Barack Obama as its next president. So in light of the depressing fact that many more babies will be found left for dead in dirty linen closets, that my taxes will increase drastically to go into programs that will never benefit me or a majority of americans and that gods institution of marriage will be defiled by Rosie O'Donnell and her partner, I need a place to ran and rave! Hence the return to my blog. Sweet Therapeutic release... Ahhh...

America this blog entry stands as a "I told you so" for the future. I am investing in "Not My President" shirts with Obama's face on it that will be purchased by punk high schoolers. That is if Obama survives long enough for us to discover what a disappointment he is. America you don't know who you just elected. All you know is he is black, young, orthographic (duh... that means he can talk good.. duh), black, your TV told you to vote for him, he wants to change things and he is black. Beyond that you know nothing about this man you voted for, you shallow society. You deserve the abysmal future you have chosen.

Thats the great thing about this country though, you can choose. I love America, I just hope he doesn't destroy it. Well I suppose the apocalypse has to be brought about somehow...

Doctor Horrible Teaser Trailer!

2008-06-25T03:21:00.000-07:00

Teaser from Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog on Vimeo.

I am growing.

2008-06-23T20:00:00.000-07:00

I am growing, and I love it! Buena Vista has brought amazing things. Last week was a very trying week for me. I had some very difficult things happen. I am grateful for every single trial. This week I will be so much better. I can already tell, I have a great group of guys! Not that last weeks were not great, but this week I feel more spiritually prepared.

I have always wanted to be a fun counselor, I wanted to be spiritual as well. I think I was giving too much attention to the first and not enough to the latter. So now I am in high gear and I feel I am a much better counselor. I love EFY I am learning so much. My mission taught me so many things and EFY provides a completely different set of lessons. I love the changes I am making in my life. I am grateful for those who who teach me and inspire me to do better. One in particular.

I truly feel I am being led and guided spiritually more than I have at any time since my mission. I feel I am growing in how I learn. I am becoming more grateful. Life is great!

I am now sorting out a new list of things in my head but it is a wonderful list! I know I will be guided in the way I should go! I love it!

Pointless battles.

2008-06-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

Lakers vs. Celtics... I could care less... but I don't like Kobe...

Obama vs. McCain... Both awful... the only thing that would make me care is if there were some good VP pics.

But whoever gets elected, nothing will change. Obama's Ideas are too radical to fly regardless of the Democratic Congressional Majority and McCain has to deal with just that. Plus he is practically comatose.

VP candidates have the potential to make me care(*hinty*Liberman*hinty*)

Otherwise I am here at EFY about to start my first week at SVU. I have 14-15 year olds so this will be fun!

Insanely busy

2008-06-12T19:50:00.000-07:00

My life has taken a complete 180 degree change. I was completely bored with nothing to do. But I got to see my friends. Now I am so busy for weeks straight. I wont get to see my friends or family for awhile. I will miss everyone big time. I already do.

On the other hand I love EFY. It is the best job of all time. I had so much fun last week. It was so much fun and you feel the spirit so strongly! The kid are great and the other counselors are tons of fun! It is so much fun.

I am visiting Tennessee right now and I am really loving to get to see old friends and people I helped and people helped me. it is an

awesome experience. Tomorrow I get to introduce my family to my mission president. I am excited to see him again.

My emotions are a crazy roller coaster right now. I just need to clear my head some how.

Bored

2008-05-23T22:22:00.000-07:00

Alfred walks across the room. "Did you kill him?" He asks with a sly grin.

"With too much pleasure," came the reply from the dark silhouette at the window, " he wont be bothering us anymore"

"Excellent, and the kill was clean?"

"By the time anyone notices he is gone we will be miles away."

"Now we can finally do what we want without him getting in the way"

The dark silhouette walks from the light of the window revealing the beautiful Alexia. Her pale face glows in the dim light of the room. Her blood red lipstick is in stark contrast with her placid blue eyes. She pulls down her long black hair as she walks toward Alfred with a sinister satisfied grin. "Yes, I did what you asked, now you had better give me what I need." Her voice is only above a whisper. Grabbing alfred by the the lapel she pulls him toward her. "You can give me what I need?" She asks.

"Oh yeah baby," says Alfred sensuously, "We goin to Disney Land!"

They climb into Alfred's Honda Civic drive to Anaheim, they ride the matterhorn but it doesn't hold a candle to the Indiana Jones ride.

The End

I am so bored.

Oh yes and THIS!!!

I love Weezer

Friday Nights

2008-05-23T21:08:00.000-07:00

It's friday, I am stuck

at home babysitting. I want to see the Indiana Jones movies so badly (even with my fears of the horrid monstrosity known as Shia.. shoot I can never remember how to spell his stupid last name.). However I have no idea when I will get to.

Iron Man was awesome, OK! I saw it and it is not like every other super hero movie out there. It is way different and I love it! The acting rocked my socks off. My only complaints is. There is not enough suit action. He spends the whole movie building and perfecting the friggin thing and then we get to see him fight in it twice. The final battle was a little anti-climactic. The good news is it got away with it because it has a really compelling story. It is one of the better superhero movies. It is up there with Batman Begins and X2 in my book. Oh but one last complaint. Putting Samuel L. Jackson in your movie is never a good idea, even if it is only for one line. It is an even worse idea to give him an eye patch.

"Wear the eye patch Bret. Wear the funky funky eye patch"
-Flight Of The Conchords

Even better than Iron Man however is the chronic-what-cles of Narnia. I loved Prince Caspian. It was amazing. Fallows the book terribly but is still amazing. Good acting, awesome effects, action galore! It is a real visual treat! It also has a lot of christian sub-text which I really enjoy. In this movie how ever it seems to focus on teaching a lesson while Wardrobe seems to have more symbolic. Enjoy it it is awesome!

No Gimmicks, Just me

2008-05-13T11:51:00.000-07:00

So I have been writing about lots of stuff lately but little about me. So here goes. Life is slightly blah. Sumer drives me insane. I have no clue what to do, I am trying to balance time so I don't upset certain groups of people and I sometimes wonder if others really want me around that much. Or I think they get upset if I am not around when they want me to be. Blech, I cant wait for my job to start. Sitting around doing random chores is lame. I feel 12 not 21. Only perk is I can drive now.

I hate being stagnant, so much. I loved having 2 years of my life jam packed with tons to do. It just seems like the phrase, "you should be doing something more productive," come to my head more and more now. I may look like I have been adjusting well but deep down, not so much. Even when I was in school class just seemed so unproductive. I mean I did well and worked hard but its not the same.

To top it off I can't stand the drama of girls and friends. Its petty its dumb and ill-conceived and sometimes I don't want to put myself in the middle of it all. Or put my drama in the middle of it for that matter. There is all the pressure in the world for me to go on a million dates a week and I don't because the first few months of it were painful and unsuccessful. I am just a mess with a great composure.

Just a rant on my deep dark feeling. For those of you who didn't like this post I am sure your regularly scheduled impersonal posts are coming soon.

Miley Cyrus, Shia LaBeouf and the Morally Depraved of Disney

2008-05-09T15:04:00.000-07:00

First off Shia LaBeouf is the worlds worst actor. Say what you want! Say he's the next Tom Hanks. Say you wish he was your peeping tom. Say you wish he would dig your holes. He still stinks. Every line, every facial expression is painfully forced, fake and awkward. Actors are supposed to act like real people not class A morons. The only person who acts that way is himself. So in reality he doesn't act he just is himself. All of his characters are exactly the same. No diversity, no talent, doofy face. I don't understand why people like him.

He is just another Disney Channel sell out. We can put him in the same basket as all the other morally depraved people who have come out of that fine institution. It all started with Brittany Spears, she was a mouseketeer and Disney was one of the first places her music was played. Look at who she is now. Same with Christina Agulaira, she has the same story. N'sync, The Backstreet Boys, Lindsey Lohan, Hillary Duff. All morally depraved whores now. Now joining them are new comers like Shia LaBeouf with his public drunkenness and staring as a pervert peeping tom who gets the girl he is stalking. Also, now included in this list is Miley Cyrus, Disney's newest skank. She is a role model to thousands of little kids and she puts herself on VanityFair wearing next to nothing.

Another thing I would like to mention is that none of the above mentioned actors, actresses and musicians have very much talent. They have to keep themselves in the lime light by doing absurd and disgusting things. But we just let it slide by. I have so many friends who idolize these people and when I mention the things they have done and do the just keep on raving. Its stupid because if I were to do the filth these people do you can bet these same friends would have a changed perception of me.

So get ready for the slaughter of Indiana Jones, keep buying Hannah Montana DVD's. Just ignore the fact that these people personify the evils of society and bask in their fame won through the compromising of their values.

My Big Idea (as well as more Dr. Horrible/The Guild :D)

2008-05-06T23:33:00.000-07:00

So I have been super excited about Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog(I origionaly wrote about it HERE). Perhaps it is unhealthy how much I am looking forward to it. There is an interview with Felicia Day HERE. In it she talks about Dr. Horrible quite a bit. Including this:

"I can tell you that it's going to be make a lot of people want to sing after hearing the music. Joss and his brothers Zack and Jed and Jed's fiance Maurissa wrote the show together to go on the internet in three parts. Joss had seen The Guild and had been percolating the idea of an internet musical for a while, and he said that watching the Guild was a part of the inspiration to get it done; that and the strike."

I just want to scream in anticipation. I am ready for the Joss Whedon awesomeness to flow into my ears and get stuck in my puny little brain!

For those of you who haven't seen Felicia's online show The Guild I would highly recommend it. It makes me laugh lots and lots. It is really well done too. Check it out.

Which brings me to my big idea! I want to do it too! I am currently brain storming some ideas for an online show... thing. I want it to be good so it will. But I am serious. I really want to do this. So if anyone has any ideas or wants to help or has access resources or what ever, let me know. This will be so much fun to do and if it turns out good, all the better!

So I made a random trailer that has nothing to do with anything, but I love it just the same.

Anyhow here are some source linkys and such:

The Guildhttp://www.watchtheguild.com/

Felicia Day Interviewhttp://www.patrickrothfuss.com

Who needs super-delegates, we need super-candidates!

2008-05-05T12:35:00.000-07:00

No clear choice for Americans.

This election is, quite frankly, a joke. Every single step has made it more laughable than the last. At first the joke was the Republican party. Remember when the joke was how many candidates were throwing their hats in? It was much like the 2004 election when the democrats had their joke for a presidential line up. Just like o4's Kerry, Dean, Edwards, Liberman and Sharpton divided the the democratic vote. Huckabee, Romney, Thompson, Giuliani and McCain tore the Republican Vote to shreds nearly immediately eliminating the ideological candidates, leaving the one moderate who actually campaigned in states other than Florida (sorry but it was a dumb move Giuliani). The republican "winner take all" rule quickly provided the party with an early nomination winner. John McCain was suddenly thrust upon republicans as their candidate. The man know for his erupting temper, who supports 100 years in Iraq and admits to knowing little about the economy is now the republicans only choice.

At least the republicans have a candidate. The party who started the election process with a nearly inevitable victory has turned this election into a hilarious nightmare, terrible if your the one having it but extremely funny when people hear about it. The democratic ways of the democratic party has been its down fall. Both candidates, Hillary and Obama, split each state right down the middle and has created a very close delegate race. Then the american public began to become aware of the un-democratic side of the democratic party, super-delegates. These delegates are not locked by the way their states vote and are for the most part the elite of the democratic party. The party created these delegates for the very purpose that if the american people made a poor choice in their popular vote, the elite of the party could change the results through the delegate vote. This is the first time they have actually mattered. So like the electoral college of the constitution, the super-delegates provide a way for the popular vote to loose. God bless the democratic system.

So who ever the delegates decide on will be the candidate. Hillary or Obama they are both lousy choices. Both are very inexperienced. Neither have their name on any major piece of legislation. They both have new voting records that show us very little of where they stand on any issues (oh wait, there is one something about Clinton supporting Iraq...). Both candidates have stooped lower than most politicians in their mud-slinging negative campaigns. One sat in a crazy anti-american church for years, has a crazy wife and won't wear a flag pin(that last one was a joke, calm down). The other has made the famous Clinton lying gene manifest, has a really crazy husband, and is psycho.

So what, you say? None of that really has much to do with the issues. This election has nothing to do with the issues. It is a media election and a mud slinging election. Who can get the hottest scantily clad girl on YouTube to dance and sing about their candidate? Who can find the most trivial flaws in the others? Who can avoid taking a real stance on any issue the longest? These thing will determine the victor and it is sad. We are going to be taking an uneducated gamble when we vote on election day. None of these candidates show any potential of bringing any change.

This would be a much different campaign if Edwards, Giuliani and Romney were still running. But ours so called democratic system managed to kill that.

It's like one of those jokes you tell and start to laugh at then you come to the realization of its sad truth and your laughter trails off...

Doctor Horrible's Sing-Along Blog!

2008-05-03T13:47:00.000-07:00

A recipe for awesome:

1. Take one internet

2. Add a liberal amount of Joss Whedon writing and directing skills

3. Mix in some Nathan Fillion

4. Stir in a cup of Felicia Day

5. Top with a hand full of Neil Patrick Harris

6. Season with Musical Numbers

7. Bake at 350 degrees till you have Doctor Horrible's Sing-Along Blog!

Why didn't they think of it sooner! Joss Whedon(Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Firefly) doing an online musical musical.

So what is this awesomeness!? Well this is what the "Official" Doctor Horrible Fan site describes it:

During the WGA strike Joss Whedon started writing a three part musical series for the internet. Each of the three episodes will be approximately ten minutes each.

Co-writers for the internet feature are Joss’ brothers Zack and Jed and Jed’s Fiancé Maurissa Tancharoen . The writing and shooting have been completed and the series is now in post-production
.
“It’s the story of a low-rent super-villain, the hero who keeps beating him up, and the cute girl from the laundromat he’s too shy to talk to.” says Whedon.

“Doctor Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog” will star Neil Patrick Harris as Dr. Horrible, Nathan Fillion as Captain Hammer, Felicia Day as Penny and a cast of dozens.”

For those of you who aren't ready to explode with anticipation, WHY THE HECK NOT! I for one am very excited to see Nathan Fillion as Captain Hammer! There is a pic of him in a what appears to be a Captain Hammer T-shirt here as well as some other interesting tid bits, it is a blog of an actress who was in the project.

The awesomeness is rumored to begin sometime in late May early June.

To keep up on the blog for sure visit the fan site:
www.doctorhorrible.net

I imagine that when the show is up it will be on the official site: www.drhorrible.com

And hey lets talk about it. Please comment!

Fare Thee Well... till august...

2008-05-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

Well I sit here procrastinating studying for my sociology final tomorrow. My last final. Unlike most, however, I am not excited for the semester to be over. Don't get me wrong. I love the fact that after two and a half years I will get to spend a month at home. I am very neutral about it all. I guess I just adjust so easily now. I mean every 4.5-6 months i had to pick up and leave for 2 years. I can do it easily. I just enjoyed being up here a lot. Now I get to go home for a month and then go back and forth between Provo and Virginia for a majority of the summer. I am very excited it will be an awesome experience. I get really excited when I think about next school year. I will get to stay in one place for more than 4 months! Then again maybe I will hate it. Maybe I am just a renegade who can't stay pinned down in one place for too long.

Perhaps that is why 2 of my idols are space renegades and scruffy lookin' scoundrels. “I've seen a lot of strange stuff, but I've never seen anything to make me believe there's one all-powerful force controlling everything. There's no mystical energy field controls my destiny.” You tell em' Han! I can't be pinned down! I make my life where I want it to be! So back off Obiwan- er... I mean pressures of society! "I got no rudder. Wind blows northerly, I go north. Thats who I am." Yeah Inara, quit trying to get Mal to be who you want him to be! He dose what fate brings him to! So thats me. If I feel I need to got to Virginia to be an EFY counselor I am packin up for EFY. Maybe I should just become a smuggler.... That would be rad!

Ok so space smuggling isn't big yet but I could get an old beat up VW bus, put a police intercepter in it and head out on the road. Takin' what ever jobs I can just to make out in the 'black' - er the 'green.' I will take any job legal or illegal. Of course I will need a quirky crew with a checkered past. I can see it now! Sitting in the passenger seat, skillfully directing my pilot in an elaborate evasion of the Mexican Policia. All the while the rest is the crew is in back trying to keep our cargo, a cooler full of human organs, safe in all the tussle. My wits increase because I know that unless I get these organs to Canada quick some poor 8 year old girl will die. Oh yeah...

Sorry, I got a bit sidetracked.

I will see where the wind takes me. Wherever it is I control what happens. My destiny! Right now, however, I want the wind to blow me towards an old VW bus.

Now taking applications for crew. Quirky preferred. Must have a deep, dark mysterious past.

Like or Hate what you see? Leave a comment.

Cause I get bored and thoughtful.

2008-04-29T23:04:00.000-07:00

So here I go posting another blog to be lost amidst a hundred blogs on the internet. But mine is special. Why might you ask? Because I am rad.

I have a lot on my mind and it doesn't seem to go away. Thus I begin my tippity tappity journey of typing it and publishing it for the whole world to see. If they even care.

What are you scared of?

I wish people would face their fears. I recently returned from my LDS mission eager to see people that I had not seen in two years. Well some were there but others were scared of me. One person in particular made absolutely zero effort to see me and still has not. It's frustrating, I can tell you that. Why can't you look me in the eye and tell me what is going on?

The point: We are cowards, we run from our problems. Our very last resort is to face them. We cower behind walls of false confidence. We are the meat head, tough guy with the little baby inside. We are the witty writer who claims deep thoughts but inside is a insecure 8th grader gazing questionably into her locker mirror. Cowards wrapped in deception.

She doesn't want to deal with her old relationship. So she avoids him entirely. He thinks that guy is a jerk. So he talks about him behind his back and will deny it to his face. All the while they harbor more and more problems as time goes on. More and more guilt. They hurt, they cheat, they lie all to avoid confrontation. They do whatever it takes to keep their chains wrapped tightly around them. I know because I am one of them at times. We are scared.

We aren't free till we face our problems, till we face our fears. Let me know rather than avoid me. I wont talk to you ever again if you don't want me to.